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Janice

♥♥ My words makes sense all the times, at least that's how I feel. I take pleasure in holding the camera, owning the things I love & good food. I love cats, that's for sure. And I believe in deciding my own fate.

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Monday, November 21, 2005 12:11 PM

Managed to get dear outta the bed and go to work. He's damn pig, love to "AWHILE MORE" ALOT! Waking him up is the one of da most difficult thing to do. DAMMIT?! He can get really angry when u get too annoying LOL, but if u don bug him, he won't wake up. :( Hais.

Think i'll update later when i'm back. I'm thinking abt alot of stuff, me, him, us. Yes. I'm having depression again. :( I miss ma0mao, shir, esther, lenie, xueling, wawa, may, ying etc etc.. They seem to be thr for me whenever i'm down on my knees. I dunno how life's gonna be w/o them. So many fakers, backstabbers & pple who can't accept you for who u are out there.

It's so weird how pple can demand you to change & change. The world is rotating, u can't keep up with all their demands. There are pple who dislike me of who i am BUT definitely many more who love me for who i am, that's why they are by my side. No one is possible of satisfying everyone's standard. It's hard.
The way you treat acquaintances & best buds are TOTALLY DIFFERENT. No one can behave normally with pple u just know merely awhile, unless he\she is fucking thick skin. Therefore when they know you more, they THINK u've changed. However, they don't even know how you're like in the past, & how u are created this way. Im definitely no shu-nu frm the start, thats smth everyone KNOWS! So why shd i go turn into one? [ THIS IS JUST AN EXAMPLE, GEDDIT?! ] Perhaps those who love me for the way i am will end up feeling disgusted. Janice shu nu? Eeeks?!

Arh .. i dunno what i'm typing here. Those who knows me well enough will get my pt.

3 more days. =) I hope this mth will be special lar, unlike every other months; staying hm. LOL -_-

Annoying LOL. :) On our way tuh town, i hope busrides with him can last forever. I rather nt having him driving a bike, i wouldn't mind walking my entire life with him. The thoughts of him going out all the time w/o me & the number of thickskinned girls who will go "fetch me lei" scares me. Not refering to those i know thou. KNN loh. Even friends can turn their backs against you. IMAGINE SOMEONE WHOM U TREATED AS A FRIEND TRY SNATCH UR BLARDY BF. NVM, SHE WASN'T CLOSE TO ME AFTERALL. OK. ENOUGH. THIS TOPIC MAKES MY BLOOD BOIL. I WANNA THROW THE KEYBOARD IN MY MONITOR , THIS HURT IS SO DEEP THAT I CAN'T BRING MYSELF TO FORGET. SPARE A THOUGHT FOR ME PLS!

I won't compare, coz i know i love him for what he's like, but pls don take me for granted. =]

You know what my fears are. I don't wanna hear anymore, i hope.

I wanna go find dear eat lunch le. Till then. ARGH.

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