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    Monday, July 31, 2006 1:59 AM



    HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MY BELOVED MAOMAO !! *

    lotsssssss of loveee . * mwahhhhs (:



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    Friday, July 28, 2006 10:36 PM


    happy owner of k800i ((:
    successful party for ash in school .


    yet, that heartbreaking phonecall.
    i missed ur voice so . i wanted so bad to run to you .
    you'll never understand. but i know what i said made sense.
    my feelings UNFOLDS ..



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    12:06 AM


    SO TIRED LEI ..

    HAPPY BIRTHDAY ASH . ((((:
    one of W24A's pride :D

    im another one. LOL. jk (:

    phuture & momo last nite with my ladies.
    uber fun. drunkendree , slpytingy , inlovemaomao and cutecutejanice. LOL.
    DREEEE I WANT THE PICTURESSS ((((: send me asap okok ? :D
    my girls are always there to make me happy .
    i'm so afraid to go home EVERYDAY .. so i rather be out with them no matter how tired i am after sch.
    cos when i'm home, thoughts will run wild luh .

    anyway, finally pushed away my laziness & scann'd all recent taken photostickers.
    GET IT FROM ME, GIRLS . LALALA .

    i think recently my hideous videos are making pple sick.
    & me becoming famous over-nite.
    i shd join huan le dian feng. HEH HEH . :X
    wah lau. really shamed myself ALOT can. ):
    STUPID PICTURES. YUCKS !! WADS WRONG WITH ME . LOLOLOL .

    k.. here's one decent one 1st before i resize all 50+++++ photos. HARDWORK u noe.

    Ugly editing I KNOW. shutup lei. lazy luh.
    a picture a day, keeps the doctor away . :DDD

    off to bed. (:

    BCL FORGETS MY EXISTANCE LIAO. _|_ TO U ALL . >.< ~



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    Wednesday, July 26, 2006 11:37 AM


    the photos you nv shown ..
    the promises broken ..
    the memories that lingers around ..
    the exact same day ..
    the shocking truth ..
    everything that's lost ..
    and the phonecall that made me jumped excitedly ..

    well sucky feeling in me. nvm (: used to it already .

    anyway glad some misunderstandings are over. :)
    happy to make a new friend at the same time. :DD

    town slacking after sch wid lenie & dree.
    den interview @ chinatown's Crazy Hours with dree.
    after which went dree's hse to stay over & watched simple life. lol.

    din made it for UT thou this morning, reached at 9 exact. ): BAH .



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    Tuesday, July 25, 2006 3:31 PM


    what's wrong with over-paranoid people?
    damn depressing. SPOIL MOOD . ):

    i don't care if u're reading this anot..
    BUT GET THIS STRAIGHT AND CLEAR IN UR MIND ;
    we are nth but just FRIENDS, AND JUST FRIENDS !
    purely friends & nth more than that. DAMN !
    stop assuming otherwise!
    u may not believe me but hello?!
    at least trust ur own bf lar?! ..
    what kind of relationship is this when there is no trust & giving up just like this?!..
    u're making wild assumptions which ends up hurting the both of u.
    wads the pt?! ..
    u shd noe hw much u mean to him, U NOE IT URSELF.
    do treasure the person u love & the one who loves u . don't regret when its too late luh.
    i do understand hw a girl can be sensitive over such issues,,
    but c'mon don't u think you're overboard?! .. why make both of u miserable?
    & affecting relationships over trivial matters is like wtf?!
    its nt even a trivial matter, WHAT YOU THINK DON'T EVEN EXIST AT ALL.
    don't drag me in & dont put blames on me. damn .
    becoz i went thru HELL & i'm damn sick & tired already. SO DONT!
    seriously, im nt guilty of ANYTHING, i have nth to hide
    so i can even speak to u if you wanna hear anything .

    that's all i have to say.
    be less sensitive, and u'll lead a happier life.
    that's what i've learnt from experience. -.-"
    i repeat ; DON'T JUMP TO NONSENSE conclusion .



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    3:28 AM


    eh. HELLO, BYEBYE .

    can't slp @ this stupid hr again .

    sch was shitty.
    INFACT every monday is horrible.
    i dunno why i'm in sch every monday, SERIOUSLY .
    COMPUTING MATHS. DAMN hell, till now i still dunno what i'm learning for these few months.
    i'll just bluff my way thru the entire lesson week after week.
    faci also can't be bothered with me. LOL. ask my team questions, she'll nv call my name. :)) i can be in my own world.
    how nice.

    i damn excited over new canteen. SUPER BIG. POWER . 18 stalls some more.
    me & deadfisheyes had lunch over thr, had some indonesianfriedchickenrice shit.
    nt bad afterall. VALUE for money. the chicken thigh quite big.
    i cant finish den that idiot say chicken die for me, must eat finish. LOL.
    EH. ya and the environment outside is POWERPOWER.
    situated at the 3rd floor, outside the canteen is the fucking big open area with a POWERPOWERPOWER view.
    can see the not-finished swimming pool n sports complex and many more.
    super windy . SHIOK. i love my sch . LOL, the design is damn NICE. trust me !
    anyone wanna tour my sch? come come i bring u.
    suddenly i'm proud to be a republican. HAHA .


    LOUSY cameraman. Slow some more. i pose thr so long den when i start to laugh then the photo was taken -.-"
    PAISEH WHAT. pple tot i SUA GU or mad. LOLOL.
    tk this kinda lj picture in own sch. HEH HEH .
    but really. THE VIEW IS DAMN BREATH-TAKING . maybe u can't see frm the pic.
    as i said, cameraman NO STANDARD . ((:
    anyway, uncompleted swimming pool behind . wooo .

    after sch headed suntec to look for lunnie & dree.
    I SWEAR I WONT TAKE 960 ANYMORE, even thou' i loveeeee tking bus esp. long journeys.
    allows me to relax and think about alot of stuffs :D
    CONTRADICTING LA .

    ok maybe i shd say.. if i have all the time in the world to waste , i'll take it still.
    super big round loh. >_<
    reached thr, slacked ard lunnie's counter awhile den me & dree cabbed to lido to find tingy.
    she passed us gala premiere tickets to Lady in the Water .
    so me & dree went for the show first since ting & lunnie haven end work yet.
    SUPER BORING, nt my kind of show.
    lucky don't have to pay . if not i sure kpkb.
    this kinda show still gt gala premiere?! ..
    ACTUALLY, the storylines are okay, just that the whole story is a myth & quite waste of time? ..
    but who knows myths may be true? lol.
    some parts ABIT funny, some parts ABIT exciting, some parts ABIT touching.
    really is ABIT that kind.
    so overall, NT MY KIND OF SHOW STILL :S


    sorry did i scare anyone!? lol.
    fucking look like ghost rite?
    i see this picture i also feel abit hair stand. LOL .
    but she's not a ghost ! she's a "narf", a nymph-like character...
    AIYA. watch the movie urself la. -.-"
    its nt a horror movie in the first place. i dun even noe wad genre it belongs to .
    fell aslp at a certain part. LOL. starting super boring . -.-"

    anyway, lunnie & tingy weren't allowed to come in already.
    too late i think :s
    me & dree finished the show den we went to find them.
    SLACK AWHILE @ lido's mac AND GO HOME.
    tk cab ALONE.
    wtf must i stay jurong. TSK!

    ok. i hate bimbos. i think they are really hopeless. -_-"

    i insist to try the jap food in sch later on . DAMMMIT .
    que long also must eat. HEH HEH .
    marc see's lessons later, weird relationship. LOL. funny classmates.

    wahlau. 7th month is here. ):
    cannot wear the bell bracelet amanda bought for me already. mother says so.
    damn pantang.

    byebye. some photos edited already , but i prefer to blog them all at once.
    PLS WAIT AWHILE MORE OK .
    i'll rush it out ASAP . : D
    buy k800i for me, & i'll finish everything in an hr . LOL.


    reason #1938203123 on why i love my laptop ; built-in camera!

    short entry i noe, but better than dont have .
    SO DON'T HIAM . check back soon . :)



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    Monday, July 24, 2006 3:18 AM


    24th. SO WHAT. TOTALLY FUCKED UP .
    FUCK YOU, FUCK HER, FUCK BOTH OF YOU.
    I SWEAR U'LL PAY FOR LANDING ME IN THE STATE.
    KNN . U & UR FUCKING BULLSHIT .

    ok. nuff'. long entry coming up tml when i'm in sch. i'll edit the pics.
    TONS OF THEM . :DDD
    over the weekends was quite pleasant. I'll elaborate on that AGAIN . :DD
    In the meanwhile . ..


    this is gonna make me oh-so-happy happy :)

    i ate durians after dinnah!
    dad bought me beef rice
    & the durians. duh . *yummy .

    i'm so excited abt sch later. why? cos our new food court ( Food Haven ) is opened.
    18stalls, 1000+ seater. no more squeezing in 1 pathetic canteen already. HEH .
    most shiok part is they serve jap food & pizzas!! x)))))
    tml die die must check it out .

    new layout? i'll think abt that .
    my rashes are coming back. fuck .
    i can't go to slp. DAMN.

    ehs makida, i'll welcome u anytimeeeeeeeee. i <3 you . enjoy sch OK. :))))



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    Tuesday, July 18, 2006 1:26 AM


    i miss amanda la. GLAD SHE'S COMING BACK !! :DDDDDD
    she left for thailand SO SUDDEN last week. damn. gd life. * argh
    and she called me when she was shitting , with that gek sai voice. LOL .
    but nevertheless she's still so sweet to call every now & then.
    i think her phone bills damn jialat. but nvm, pple rich. (:
    anyway eh, dont keep kena bluff lei.. pple say u look like japanese is wana make u buy things frm them. POR U ONLY ok. whahas. (:

    Met up with lenie just now. She came jurong with ahboy, & had dinner with his family.
    i love my mummum (((:

    UT later again . -.- NON-STOP . but sch is always fun lar . V.v"

    sighs, still nt much hope .



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    Sunday, July 16, 2006 10:39 PM


    I'm sorry I didn't mean to call you
    But I couldn't fight it
    I guess I was weak and couldn't even hide it
    And so I surrender just to hear your voice
    I know how many times I said I'm gonna to live without you
    And maybe someone else is standing there beside you
    But there's something baby that you need to know
    That deep inside me I feel like I'm dying
    I have to see you it's all that I'm asking

    Baby, give me back my fantasies
    The courage that I need to live
    The air that I breathe

    Livin' without you, my world's become so empty
    My days are so cold and lonely
    And each night I taste the purest of pain

    I wish I can tell you that I'm feeling better everyday
    that I didn't hurt when you walked away
    but to tell you the truth I can't find my way
    That deep inside me I feel like I'm dying
    I have to see you, it's all that I'm asking
    -----------------------------------------------------------------------

    I fucking miss you . Seriously, badly . *
    I'm still awaiting ur return, every moment . ):
    pls find ur way home soon .
    my only wish everyday is to see your name on my phone, but it never comes true .



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    Thursday, July 13, 2006 1:04 PM


    THANK YOU pple.
    thank you thank you thank you . (((:

    i noe my blog is VERY BORING recently. all about this whole stupid incident.
    aiya fuck it .
    i can live well & is gonna play well .
    promise for good entries from now man, just for u all :DD

    SOME OVERDUE PICS FOR NOW .
    Town with Amanda


    fuck the face man. she was testing her cam. LOL *v*


    SHY . stop taking foto of me lar !


    my sweet shit. Stop hurting her man. DAMN THOSE BASTARDS .


    LOL wtf.


    Chenin black @ balcony with herr. :DD


    she always looks SO GOOD ! damn .


    Banana walnut muffin.


    Photostickers. ^^ DAMN . i love her too man . although we officially noe each other for a short time only,, but it feels like a long time man. She's so easy to talk to & the best part,, she IS ALWAYS there for me. Really appreciate it. She has already become someone really special in my life . :D


    Trust me, she's as mad as me :D


    Who says ex-gfs can't be close friends ?!


    She's too hot, therefore i love to MOLEST her !!

    Yea. that's it. Break time ending already .
    I wanna pluck more leg hairss from my stupid fren :D
    GONE .

    Love everyone who reads my blog . Love my friends . Love those who love me . Love those who hates me . Love him n his future wife.
    LOL . LOVESSSSSSSSSSS . IM SO LOVING. DAMN :DDD



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    Wednesday, July 12, 2006 6:49 PM


    i think i've been the dumbest person on earth .

    i fucking begged like a dog.
    i've nv put down all my pride & beg a person to come back.
    this is the first time in my entire life to beg like that !
    furthermore it wasn't me who did wrong sial !
    i made myself worthless, FOR WHAT?!! shame on myself . ):

    that's how ur replies sounded, like i owe u few millions .
    and u made me realised what HEARTLESS means & hw FAST ur feelings can come & go .
    i was willing to forget everything n allowing anything just for u to come back..
    hope u do, since we both share the same name (:

    anyway.. u fucking threw me aside to pick up the fucking broken pieces of my life..
    and i'm not GONNA just ROT n DIE BLEEDING while picking them up .
    i'm determined to live better than u both .
    i fucking hate the smug looks of u both in the photos.
    it even haunts me in my slp. cb .

    I promised myself to be very happy frm now . :)))))
    at least i know i left someone who isn't worth it .
    therefore i'm gonna stand strong.
    i have to tk back my words, i shall not ADMIT DEFEAT cos it's u who lost eventually.
    u gave up on the one who love u the most, u gave up on our future .
    since that's the way u want everything to be, wish u luck .
    i'm not gonna PESTER the both of u and make u think i'm THE irritating bitch INSTEAD . ENJOY EACH OTHERS' COMPANY MAN .

    i hafto congrats HER, for finally succeeded in having u by her side at her next attempt . she tried after a year again ? i think she tried hard man.
    This time she gt both ur heart n body . : D
    cb. i wonder y din you leave me a year ago since u LOVE HER SO MUCH.
    maybe last time dont love, now love lo .. easy for you what , heart can change so fast.
    AT LEAST THAT TIME YOU LEAVE, DAMAGE WONT SO BIG RIGHT ?!!
    & now u hurt me with the same person AGAIN .
    and to think last time i forgave you & act dumb .
    Right now, i was willing to again, but u threw shit right at my face !

    i have no regrets man, cos' i know i did my part well as a girlfriend n' i had treasured u enough .
    the only regret i have is ; falling for ur trick , which is making me leave u, den u can officially expose ur secret relationship with her. HAPPY EH, dont hafta hide anymore?!
    i really regret ! but nvm. since ur HAPPY, i'll make myself HAPPIER lar . (:
    and i also regret not wanting to accept the fact that u are sucha person . damn !
    i kept on foolishly pleading with someone whose heart is GONE, someone who had already forgotten that i was once in his life, like sudden memory lost.

    just hafta accept that he's gone, & wont come back anymore, just like his love for me.
    i'm nt gonna hate him at all ; cos its nt possible to hate n love at the same time. -.-" its two different thing. just extremely disappointed . EXTREMELY .. big impact in life .

    ehhhhhs FUCK . (: i'll keep to my promise to myself ; BE HAPPY .
    Like how i used to be . I'm strong REMEMBER ?!!

    FUCKING BIG THANKS to those on my tags, sent smses, sent emails ..
    wahlau. i'm shocked to see the amount of concern shown. (((:
    i lost the guy i fucking love but i gotten much more love !!
    i love my friends sia, those who spent time with me ..
    and those whom i din seen or contacted for sometime, i din expected u pple will still care . ((((:
    i still love u pple n u guys are my main motivation cos friends make me happy . :D
    and those anonymous and passerbys ; million thanks as well . i really wish to know u pple sia . : DD
    all of u have been soo nice & supportive man !



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    Sunday, July 09, 2006 8:02 AM


    if that's the bad-state u wanted to see me in, congratuations, u did it.
    i admit defeat this time. u succeeded in bringing me down.

    not only u pushed me down umpteen times, u stepped on me hard .
    thanks for ripping my wounds apart . .
    it's hard for me to stand up again .

    i really have nth to say , if u feel thats wad i eventually deserve for all my efforts all along.
    so this is what u feel i should finally get in return . fine .
    for this whole year, i wondered how many lies i've actually believed & how many nonsense u did behind me. silly me . nvm. past .

    made a fool a again. always the fucking idiot here.
    how long have i been kept in the dark again ?!
    how much have u actually hid from me..
    if i did not said to leave u alone for the time being, are u gonna hide everything from me forever & drag on and on?
    & so.. all along, ur so-called no time .. were repeated lies, am i right? ..
    i worth NTH in ur heart . .

    i dunno what i did wrong to deserve all this .
    everything's so vicious & the facts so hard to accept.
    smth is stuck there in my heart. i dunno what.

    i refused to believe what you said, i trusted you ! i tot u were trying to drive me away..
    den, i can't believe my eyes at first, i prayed i was dreaming all along.
    but i'm snapped back into reality here. how long could i lie to myself?
    it aint gonna work. IT HAS BECOME REALITY .
    i bet my heart skipped a beat for that moment .
    something i least expected n never will dream of, actually came true.
    after 1 year later & all the ups & down we've been thru.. u decided to tk a fucking u-turn! hw abt me? .. .

    no time for r/s ? stress? no time? ya .. this is what u said . i tried my best to understand.. ended up?..
    no freedom ? ya. u felt that way..ask urself carefully pls. maybe if i din let u go anywhere without me all the time, all these won't even happen. But u are really out of control therefore i gave up, if u did realised.
    Just when i was able to put more trust in you by not questioning much & nt being so fuck glue .. this is what u do to me, AGAIN .
    Too late . U stabbed me hard, into my heart once again .
    I haven even fully recovered since last time. U can't blame me for being so sensitive all along, u noe i can't help it . And u urself shd noe why . If i din love u at all, u think i'll care ? ..
    Reasons u kept avoiding n giving me lies n excuses for the past weeks? I DON'T DARE TO IMAGINE WHY .
    It's not easy to be always waiting for ur own bf to meet up with you..
    not even once a week . no efforts put in, nt at all, only empty promises.
    maybe you find me a bother. maybe u feel i don't understand you.. but pls, look. i tried my best not to quarrel with u over minor things by not bugging u that often.. but u took everything for granted. you thought i did not care when i din msg u.
    if i cared a little me more, u ASK ME NOT TO ASK SO MUCH ..
    i beared with ur temper, i tried not to say much when u suddenly show attitude in ur msges.
    i hope u did felt my efforts. i really hope u did, cos i tried.
    tell me what shd i do instead? i tried my best to always be there..
    i tried my best to understand u. i swear i did, but u don't seem to think so at all.
    look what u've did . . left me speechless .

    i dunno where i did wrong. i dunno where im nt good enough . .
    y do i actually deserve all these im getting?! ... why ..

    so much for begging all this time, willing to accomodate with everything n anything at all. i pleaded so hard, i did everything i could ..
    at first u were concerned, soon u ignored almost everything,
    leaving me waiting all the time like a dumb fool. giving myself false hopes n excuses for u.
    ended up, im the bad guy DISTURBING U ALL . not a single explanation from you.
    my conscience is clear. i din do u any wrong. I DID NOT EVER .

    THEN i finally came to realize why everything isnt working at all.

    i tried all means & ways, friendster, sms and even email -.-"
    i guess i was pretty annoying, even i myself couldnt stand it, BUT DAMN I SWEAR I WAS REALLY DESPERATE N HELPLESS ALREADY.
    what else could i do to make u concern abt me like before!?
    den ..my pleads came back with hurting replies or worse still, no replies.
    and the most jialat one is, u din even respect me @ all, leaving someone else to reply my msges. how would u feel if i were to do the same thing to you ?! ..
    u knew i HATE IT ! & that person is indeed VERY RUDE .
    It's ok. I know who that person is already.

    where are the 3 chances u mentioned. u never even gave me 1 , n u walked off like that, nt even turning back at all .
    i swear i din mean to leave in the first place, i felt no assurance from u, nt even bothering to answer my simple questions. i was really tired.. after that i regretted because i thought for you.. your so-called stress n' other reasons for neglecting me for weeks..
    but so what if i din leave u? i'm gonna be that stupid spare tyre kept in the dark for al l the time ..
    now .. who would have thought that the actual reason can fucking hurt me so bad. it's like history repeating itself. my fears, all came back..!

    what's 1 year plus relationship compared to few days?!
    maybe it started weeks & even mths back, before i left u, i dunno . NOT INTERESTED .
    But where did ur compassion went to? is ur heart even still there? ..
    but well, i left my heart with you back then . don't destroy it thou .
    i still harbours hopes abt u coming back. call me dumb, whatever .

    u can just change in days . what abt me? .. u left me behind since that day, miserable .
    Its ok.
    i can see ure doing great n' smiling happily, good thing for u.
    so i think u don give a fuck abt me anymore.
    as simple as blinking ur eyes, there i go, out of ur life already. Great .
    No point pestering someone whose heart has changed drastically in sucha short time, thou' i'll miss u as much as before .
    But that is what love is like . i'll try my best to be happy for u. -.-"

    BLESSINGS TO THE PERSON I'VE NEVER STOP LOVING MOST SINCE 240505.
    i'm not gonna hate you . i can't bring myself to do so as well . BUT PLS DON'T ATTEMPT FURTHER TO MAKE ME DO SO .
    take care & pls dont get urself burnt when playing with fire ..u noe what i mean ya.
    but well, since u've made up ur mind, like you've said.
    Don't blame me for writing this whole thing. I had to express my feelings, badly.
    I know maybe you'll feel offended . but well, sorry , i mean no harm .
    i'm not gonna pollute my blog by commenting on someone else. redundant people ya.
    & that person better not piss me off further.
    This whole thing is like abt me n you ONLY, i don't see anyone else .
    I'm not gonna care abt anyone's feelings anymore, since u pple actually don't bother abt mine.
    But yes, u did hurt me bad this time.
    If u tink by doing all this will make me give up, maybe ure wrong. I'm as stubborn as you.
    i WAS happy with u all along i swear, until u started neglecting me .. for ur own reasons ..
    do u noe how shitty it is to miss a person badly? ..
    Pls don't think that by not coming back, u wont hurt me anymore in the future.
    It's silly. The only way ure nt gonna stop hurting me is come back ? ..
    i still hope u'll explain smth .. i still hope maybe u'll tell me what i see is not what i think.
    i still hope u'll tell me that you have ur own valid reasons.
    i still hope u'll tell me that you din mean it at all ..
    i still hope u'll tell me that you still l o v e me .
    but i guess i'm hoping for the impossibless..

    so far, have u ever taken our relationship n my feelings into consideration? sighs.
    afterall, i'll be lying if i say i don't blame you AT ALL after everything.
    The damage is done.
    And i'm not tryin' to gain ur sympathy here .
    i've already did what i can to win ur heart back.. but well.. no chance given.
    u shut the door right in front of my face.
    after what u've done, u can walk away & pretend that nth has happened at all ..
    maybe ure happy in ur new world, happier without me.

    its nt easy writing this entry, serious .
    i'm not even sure whether ure gonna bother to come to my blog in the first place. -_-
    i'm leaving it to fate.

    --------------------- Nuff' said .

    True friends are the ones who are always there to listen patiently no matter what, and doesn't snap u off or give insensitive comments even when u start to whine 24/7. They'll understand your mood-swings & don't blame you for that .
    ..& i'm glad i have a whole bunch of them who i can really lean on .
    BIGthankyous to lenie, amanda, fattymay, ziying, kenneth, lunnie, cecil, brenda, xueling, william.
    they're always a phonecall away . (: trying their best to pull me up again & tolerating my nonsense ..
    And to those who showed their concerns .. well, u noe who u pple are. i appreciate it lots. REALLY !

    I THINK I'M FUCKING HYSTERICAL .
    in a pathetic state & insane mindset to write sucha long entry on a sunday morning as well . I CAN'T HELP IT .
    u moronic pple can laugh at me as much as u want to. TAKE UR CHANCE.
    JANICE IS DOWN AT LAST . HOORAY .
    well. i'll curse u for laughing thou' . u'll get ur karma, IMMEDIATELY, even having evil thinkings. x)
    my retribution ? Nah. THIS IS LIFE'S UPS & DOWNS . Don't pity me .
    i'm gonna get up, no matter how hard its gonna be . you guys know i will .
    i fucking had gone thru' enough .


    you can fucking trust me on this . don't be naive & disagree .



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    Thursday, July 06, 2006 10:05 PM


    it really hurts so bad .
    wadda hell am i thinking .
    i'm beginning to regret everything.

    i swear i miss u . )))):
    i'd do anything n agree to anything..

    just come back . . . I'M BEGGING U .



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    Monday, July 03, 2006 2:21 AM


    The pain is unbearable .

    but i've no choice but to let go .



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    Sunday, July 02, 2006 6:06 AM



    A fucking pity. ))))))))))))))))))))))))))):
    I can understand how Jilly felt when Japan got out. :(((((((((((((((((((
    DAMN. The ultimate hopes of them holding the cup PERISHED when 90mins ended up with France scoring 1. HAIS !!! The coffeeshop uncle damn accurate.
    History repeats. Brazil lost to france 8 yrs back. NOW AGAIN . =[[
    Bye ronaldo, carlos, ronaldinho, dida, robinho, cicinho, adriano, cafu, lucio, kaka, juan, z. roberto, gilberto, juninho, ricardinho, emerson .
    BYE BRAZIL. 2010, u guys will get it. PROMISE !


    Another till penalty game.
    Bye husband, bye england.
    I'll still love u guys.
    But i also like the ports. (:
    They played much better, serious. :DDD"

    Time to slp . Tired. v_v"

    I'm still considering whether to make that important decision in my life . Hmms.



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    Saturday, July 01, 2006 7:25 PM


    Happy Birthday Kai Ni !! (30thJun)
    Happy Birthday Amelia & Hoonie (1stJul) * !!

    lovelove.

    I realised im damn noisy when watching soccer. LOL.
    alot of un-necessary comments sia. HEHE .
    Really. fuck germany last night. LOUSY PERFORMANCE.
    Whereas for Italy, well, they are much better already.
    But still i hope Brazil thrash em' all. HEH.
    Tonight's 2 matches are so exciting.
    Must watch, must watch . (:

    fuck those RASHES everywhere luh !!!
    SO IRRITATING !! I NEED TO GO NATIONAL SKIN CENTRE LAR !!
    ): i feel disgusted.

    Found some damn funny pictures..


    My poor Ronaldo.


    Becks !


    Figo.

    Damn ugly la ! How can they portray them until lidat sia. =S
    Ok . bb for now .
    TV TV TV ~!!~



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