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♥♥ My words makes sense all the times, at least that's how I feel. I take pleasure in holding the camera, owning the things I love & good food. I love cats, that's for sure. And I believe in deciding my own fate.

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fucking shit .

Wednesday, July 12, 2006 6:49 PM

i think i've been the dumbest person on earth .

i fucking begged like a dog.
i've nv put down all my pride & beg a person to come back.
this is the first time in my entire life to beg like that !
furthermore it wasn't me who did wrong sial !
i made myself worthless, FOR WHAT?!! shame on myself . ):

that's how ur replies sounded, like i owe u few millions .
and u made me realised what HEARTLESS means & hw FAST ur feelings can come & go .
i was willing to forget everything n allowing anything just for u to come back..
hope u do, since we both share the same name (:

anyway.. u fucking threw me aside to pick up the fucking broken pieces of my life..
and i'm not GONNA just ROT n DIE BLEEDING while picking them up .
i'm determined to live better than u both .
i fucking hate the smug looks of u both in the photos.
it even haunts me in my slp. cb .

I promised myself to be very happy frm now . :)))))
at least i know i left someone who isn't worth it .
therefore i'm gonna stand strong.
i have to tk back my words, i shall not ADMIT DEFEAT cos it's u who lost eventually.
u gave up on the one who love u the most, u gave up on our future .
since that's the way u want everything to be, wish u luck .
i'm not gonna PESTER the both of u and make u think i'm THE irritating bitch INSTEAD . ENJOY EACH OTHERS' COMPANY MAN .

i hafto congrats HER, for finally succeeded in having u by her side at her next attempt . she tried after a year again ? i think she tried hard man.
This time she gt both ur heart n body . : D
cb. i wonder y din you leave me a year ago since u LOVE HER SO MUCH.
maybe last time dont love, now love lo .. easy for you what , heart can change so fast.
AT LEAST THAT TIME YOU LEAVE, DAMAGE WONT SO BIG RIGHT ?!!
& now u hurt me with the same person AGAIN .
and to think last time i forgave you & act dumb .
Right now, i was willing to again, but u threw shit right at my face !

i have no regrets man, cos' i know i did my part well as a girlfriend n' i had treasured u enough .
the only regret i have is ; falling for ur trick , which is making me leave u, den u can officially expose ur secret relationship with her. HAPPY EH, dont hafta hide anymore?!
i really regret ! but nvm. since ur HAPPY, i'll make myself HAPPIER lar . (:
and i also regret not wanting to accept the fact that u are sucha person . damn !
i kept on foolishly pleading with someone whose heart is GONE, someone who had already forgotten that i was once in his life, like sudden memory lost.

just hafta accept that he's gone, & wont come back anymore, just like his love for me.
i'm nt gonna hate him at all ; cos its nt possible to hate n love at the same time. -.-" its two different thing. just extremely disappointed . EXTREMELY .. big impact in life .

ehhhhhs FUCK . (: i'll keep to my promise to myself ; BE HAPPY .
Like how i used to be . I'm strong REMEMBER ?!!

FUCKING BIG THANKS to those on my tags, sent smses, sent emails ..
wahlau. i'm shocked to see the amount of concern shown. (((:
i lost the guy i fucking love but i gotten much more love !!
i love my friends sia, those who spent time with me ..
and those whom i din seen or contacted for sometime, i din expected u pple will still care . ((((:
i still love u pple n u guys are my main motivation cos friends make me happy . :D
and those anonymous and passerbys ; million thanks as well . i really wish to know u pple sia . : DD
all of u have been soo nice & supportive man !

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